“I only fear myself, the greatest threat in my own existence. I am the critique of my own creation.”

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The doubt that’s been looming over is human. So is the fear.

Faith is what makes us sentient beings strong. To be burdened and to suffer are to live, and a safety net, a speck of faith when times are harder is what keeps us going. But what is faith to someone who believes in no God?

“What can’t be seen is to not be feared, I thought. I only fear myself, the greatest threat in my own existence. I am the critique of my own creation.”

But wouldn’t that be a foolish and arrogant thought?

Fate is cruel and…


If you were to watch the darker, dystopian version of our reality in the near future claimed as the perfect society, would you continue watching it?

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The Sibyl System

I wouldn’t claim myself as an avid anime watcher, manga reader, or film and TV series connoisseur, not that there’s anything wrong with it if you are, but when I do watch them, it’s significantly rare I get emotionally invested in one. There are only so few that hooks me to the bone and leaves me emotionally-wrecked. Psycho-Pass is one of them. Psycho-Pass has been on my Netflix watch list for some time, and I’d say the current global situation pushed the urge in me to take it off my list. So I did, with the 2-season series and Psycho-Pass…


We might not be bound by blood, but your support runs thicker than it.

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I remember listening to Billie Eilish’s When I Was Older about last year, and my fingers started to dwell on the keyboard, whether to run my thoughts in a cathartic manner or to think of them on a later day, thinking I’d regret to pursue. Here I am about a year later. It said,

“The open sea was my own blood, where the rogue waves I did not see coming. And when none fought by me, he stayed. I’m here now. I thought I’d tell him all the stories from the seven seas when I was a little older. …


A letter to legacy and a dear mentor, by a youngling in a man’s man’s world.

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Now, now, I’ll have to warn you I’m well aware that I might be too young to be talking about legacy. But here we are.

I’m not sure what’s struck me, at the time of writing (11.39 PM, to be precise) that I’ve jumped out of my bed to write this. In all honesty, it was probably a reverie I recalled earlier. Amongst the restlessness that has hit most of us for almost a year, zoning out is inherent. When you’re in a break from creative pursuits — and by that, I mean completely detached from it, action- and engagement-wise…


A story about the lessons I learned from this precarious time.

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Illustration by yours truly

This patience grows weary from all the pandemic updates that light up on the digital screens I own, the news app installed on my phone, and the social media platforms I’m on. Anxiety slowly seeps in, and frustration climbs on its nails that I shouldn’t take my eyes off the screens. Until I decided to abruptly close the tabs on the progress of the vaccine, the nation-wide numbers, the usual nonsense rooted in ignorance that keeps breaking the records in appalling me. …


Digital declutter wasn’t so hard until it felt like a withdrawal symptom.

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Living in a world that’s more connected than ever isn’t easy to deafen our ears from the noise and detach ourselves from it. Accompanied by the most convenient piece of gadget that doesn’t take a lot of space in our pockets, the screens that we stare at every day. In this day and age where most data has been digitized, it surely has become convenient as we’re able to access pretty much everything in no time. Information that we’re able to get in a matter of seconds can be useful, but it can also be overwhelming. Where you are, what…


It has always been of interest, machine learning, a subset of the subject artificial intelligence (AI), which, in its intriguing nature, sparks the questions of ethics and morality especially now that machines have arrived and are learning at an accelerating rate. In this modern-day and age, machines have been implemented to do tasks that vary from high-quantity production at a lower cost to data outsourcing on social media platforms, simple tasks which the majority of the process are repetitive and can be done without human input other than the initiation and control aspect of these tasks. Generative design itself has…


Born and raised in Indonesia, I grew up in a conservative family where expectations are always meant to be met. The word ‘pressure’ is something that comes on the first page of my dictionary, often on the day to day basis. It is said that it’s of a culture that is “forbidden to vanish as the so-called eastern culture will cease to exist due to (inevitable) globalization”, no matter how much the toll is taken on a child to carry such parental and social pressure for the sake of traditions and “good image”. Therefore, freedom for some people becomes taboo.

Sasqia Pristia

Graphic designer & observer with fast-food intolerance. Currently observing from Jakarta.

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